Friday, September 5, 2014

a year of new adventures

I remember my sigh of relief when my little baby Boston was placed in my arms for the first time. He made it to this earth safe and sound after an unexpected delivery {due to my paralysis}. Thank God! This baby came with much surprise and has kept us on our toes ever since. Who knew it would be such a whirlwind of so many emotions with each event. Before we knew it, a year has gone by since the birth of our beautiful little boy, and what an adventure it's been for us all.

We saw Boston grow rapidly, seeking adventures of his own. From holding his head up, to rolling over, to crawling, to exploring (and breaking things) with such curiosity, to toddling so independently. And what a personality he has: sharing, loving, bubbly, cuddly, giggly, feisty, and all-around sweet. He has 5 and 1/2 teeth now which further brightens his beautiful smile. His little brown eyes coupled with that smile just melt my heart. His hair, long, wild and curly as ever (who would've thought that curly hair would bless our family of straight-haired Asians?). And those thighs, those wonderfully squeezable thunder thighs! Best of all, is his playful, cuddly, and fun-seeking personality. We love everything about this little boy. He makes everyday that much better.

There are no words that can express the immense joy this boy has brought into our lives. I cherish the moments he shares with me as he holds my hand, wraps his little arms around me tight, plays with my face, pats my back, giggles at my funny faces, chuckles when we play peek-a-boo, lays his head on my shoulder, and just falls asleep in my arms. I look forward to these sweet moments everyday, although some days are harder than others to get to them. All the sleepless nights, teething, falls, and sick days are worth it. I find comfort in knowing he feels my love for him and that all of this will add up one day to his healthy being.

I've learned and am still learning how to be a mom in a wheelchair and mother in the gospel. It's been something I really, really had to trust God with especially with my worries of not being a "normal" mom and extremely inadequate as a person. And I'll tell ya this, if there's one sure thing about this whole process it's that He's been the anchor that got me through the rough patches of low self-confidence. Life in general requires much faith, courage, diligence, and love, which all of us are equipped with through trials both large and small. With that, anything is possible, including parenting and for me, parenting with a disability. I thank God for placing this gift in my lap and allowing me to learn so much about myself in the process. I know now that I need not fear what lies ahead because He's given me the strength to carry on all tasks including that of raising His child. I know the trials will differ, but that faith will see me through.
My husband and I have grown together as a couple while on this adventure. It's amazing how close two people can become when they have their goals aligned and find joy at the end of those exhausting days. We've found so much to laugh about, especially as we see Boston's found the toilet water or is getting into our laundry basket again. I'm thankful for such a wonderful companion to help raise this mischievous son of ours. I'm thankful for this patience, understanding, and unconditional love.
I thank my family for being there to encourage me the whole way. We have been so fortunate to have a family that loves Boston as much as we do. Each one of us plays a huge role in Boston's development, the love that he feels, and the confidence he has. It's been said before that "it takes a village to raise a child." Our clan has been the best support we could have asked for our little son. It's nice to know that there are people looking out for Boston besides us and if we are lacking in some areas (because we're still learning), we have help to instill good principles in our son. It's a very awesome system of trust that we're learning to balance each day. I hope Boston knows how lucky he is one day to be surrounded by so many people who love him and are cheering him on. This year is a victory for us all.

 Some have said that the adventure ends with children, but I argue the contrary--my adventure {actually, life in general} has gotten more interesting and meaningful because of Boston. I love to travel, see new places, meet new people, and learn new things, but with Boston, every new experience becomes an opportunity to teach and solidify my discoveries. We seek after even more adventures to share with our little Boston. In his first year of life, he's been to 7 different states, 3 national parks, Disney World, and we're looking forward to more adventures to come with him.

This sweet little baby, he lays his head on my chest asleep to the sound of my heart beats. I bask in his sweet smell of baby's breath and capture the image of his innocent little body for years to come. I let out another sigh of relief. My son is one year old. We made it. One whole year of adventures together and so many more to go. Oh, how I love him so…

Pictures from his "UP" themed birthday party to come!

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